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Or rather, have been doing my best to think. What I haven’t recognised is how my insomnia, sleeplessness and therefore sleeping pill consumption, may be affecting my ability to see and think clearly. After doing a bit of research, all the energy I’ve been spending on ensuring I’m de-calcifying my pineal gland in order to better access my intuition and align with my higher self, may be for naught. I haven’t felt more closed off and just last night, began to think the medication, though I may get several hours of uninterrupted sleep, may be worse than not sleeping. I mean, even with it, I haven’t had a full nights sleep in several years. I question whether there’s another reason why I’m not sleeping other than the sleep disorder I’m claimed to have.

Today, I picked up a book I’ve had a challenge sticking to: “I Am the Word,” by Paul Selig. My friend Elaine has been adamant about me reading it, even giving me the audiobook to listen to. I’ve never really given audiobooks a fair try. I feel like I’m not doing enough if I’m sitting around and listening. Like I’m missing a better way to learn by reading the words, hearing it in my head and taking notes. I’m also a sucker for physical books; hardcover preferred, so I have more room to make notes.

Free excerpt from the book here.

Anyhow, I digress.

In the prologue, the channeled spirits mention that it’s my choice on whether I receive their healing. “Am I willing now to be on a path of radical change that will leave me naked and resplendent in my frequency without the tethers to a past self that are no longer serving me?” Of course I said yes! I’m open to the life I’ve always desired and recognise I’m closer to it than I’ve ever been.

The first exercise was to open my seventh chakra on the top of my head and receive energy. To have the energy go through my body and align each centre, chakra, and energy vortex to the highest frequency in preparation for the journey to come. I have no problem connecting to that. In fact, I think I’m not grounded enough as often feel woozy. The second exercise was much more challenging. To work on me individually, which I believe I resist from anyone, they asked me to receive light through my third eye.

Nothing. Absolutely nothing.

I did an exercise I learned from Carol Tuttle, and massaged the middle of my forehead, imagining I was removing eye crusties from my third eye, flicking it open with my fingers.

Still nothing. So, I started researching. One study suggests there’s no effect on sleep with use of pharmaceuticals versus drug free insomniacs. Another study states that CBT is more effective (which I’ve been doing for many years and doesn’t seem to change anything). I couldn’t find any studies on the effects of things on people with higher vibrational frequencies, but In5D has a fantastic article about supplements, medications, sensitivities and spiritual progress? I am an intuitive, empath and highly sensitive person and proud of it. Unfortunately, the traditional ‘systems,’ integrated or not, don’t seem to take this all into account, so mainly, I’m focused on listening to me, even if it is a little clouded right now.

Since the beginning of September, I’ve chosen a lot of changes. I got rid of half of my belongings, moved out of the city I’ve lived in for 30 years, and with assistance, got off of most pharmaceuticals for the depression, PTSD and anxiety I’d been supposedly ‘diagnosed’ with (note the sarcasm here; I’m not labelling myself with something so confining and negative). I’ve taken away most things I would’ve used in the past to numb or distract myself – TV, music, alcohol, cigarettes, marijuana, overeating, overworking, overspending,  oversleeping and more! I’ve added the Morter March by Morter Health Systems (my partner is an upcoming practitioner – message me for details) and Qigong to my daily practice of meditation and reflection, which have definitely helped to begin reprogramming and reframing my thoughts and how I talk, as well as greatly reduce any residual panic, depression and anxiety.

Still, I am searching for a balance and will continue to do so. The In5D article has hit me more than I thought it would and I believe a good nights rest (still with medication for the time being), will be my option until something more solid comes my way. I could write so much more on this topic and will break it down further at another time.

Have any of you experienced insomnia, sleep disorders or the like and are at a heightened state of awareness? Have you found anything that works well for you?


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So, it’s done. Final edits are with the publisher. Bio and pic sent. Reader’s list completed. I’m not sure how I feel.

My story will now be immortalized yet again, in a public format (see http://www.wrongwaytohope.com for my first) along with 20 co-authors. There’s something big about sharing my life with the world; with all of you. Something so final about letting go of the old. It’s very exciting! The timing couldn’t be better either – 15 days into 2016 is the book launch (I’d love for you to join me – message me for a discount).

HEARTMIND_WISDOM_3_Book_Launch_Mercy_Ships_Fundraiser_M_grande.png  Please share this far and wide, and better yet, purchase a copy before I even have one in my hands. Visit this link for a few options to purchase. You can even get all three collections for an amazing deal! 

There’s also something pretty exciting that you won’t get to see until you get a copy of the book!

Spontaneity is the exquisite expression of the unexpected. 

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