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But I’m not. While being sick wasn’t how I imagined I’d ring in the New Year, it has given me an interesting lesson. I had been fighting this bug off for several days before Christmas and given all the festivities planned, wasn’t entertaining the idea that I would get sick. I did my daily Morter March, Qigong set and PEMF treatments (more on that in another post). After all the things planned had gone off without a hitch, strangely my mind started to believe getting sick was possible. 

 The daily sore throat wasn’t going away, the body aches became more severe and on the Eve of New Year’s Eve, it hit me. Boy was I ever resentful of who I could’ve possibly gotten sick from.

The thought process of feeling resentful only hindered my ability to fight it off and after midnight hit January 1, I was curled up in bed under at least seven layers of cuddly goodness. My partner lay next to me, sipping his New Years libation, the screen of his smart phone too much for even my closed eyes to bare. Yep, I was an irritated, drippy mess.

That day I had pushed myself and changed plans last minute to spend some time with my dad in the US. We don’t see each other too often, namely based on childhood and adulthood tensions, but I had some paperwork he needed ASAP. Thankfully Stefan drove down and we spent several hours setting up and then playing on his Nintendo WII. I had fun, but deep down I recognized I’d done it again – not listened to myself while my body was screaming at me.

Stefan had fun rocking the guitar on WII Rock Band. 

More often than not, I give away my personal power to help or make other people feel better. Some of the time I feel good about it, but others, there’s a strong resentment which makes me realize I need to bring the power back to myself.

Feeling unhappy about a decision I had made wasn’t going to do me any good moving forward, so I decided to change my thinking. (I truly thank Joseph Ghabi and Stefan Sczyrba for their help and persistence on this topic). Instead of being upset for being sick, I began to see I had choice of the possible positive side of the situation.

“What in heavens would be the positive side of being sick?” you ask. 

Well, think of it this way. The body is purging that which no longer supports it to it’s highest frequency. That which doesn’t allow it to provide the greatest good for itself and all it serves.

Changes things a bit doesn’t it?

In essence, all the energy work I’ve been doing this last year and a half, effects all forms of what makes us human: the Physical, Emotional, Mental and Spiritual bodies (or PEMS for short).

Making a change in one, effects them all.

I found a really interesting article by a Shaman that explains this in more detail: The Energy Purge: Feeling Sick After Energetic or Spiritual Work?

Upon undergoing an energetic change in your energetic body, in this case, we are referring the healing in which low energy is removed and replaced with high energy, there is a change in the other two bodies – and often, there is a lag time between the changes.

This is the energy purge. You are purging old, low energy and replacing it with new, healed, high energy.

it happens first, in an energy healing, at the level of energy.and then, it has to reverberate through the other two bodies – the physical and the spiritual.

An energy purge occurs on ALL levels when you undergo an energy healing, because all are connected and all levels are comprised of energy. There is often a lag with this, because it takes time for your physical and spiritual bodies to adjust to and begin to shift their old states of being to the the new tale that the energy is telling.

Your physical body and your spiritual body have to shift out old, low states, too. Because these are the states that once matched your old energetic state.

So tonight, a few days later and still purging, I’m gentle with myself, asking for help when I need it and not pushing. So off to bed I go, with so many more ideas of what to write bouncing through my head…I could write for days on these topics. 

I would love to hear about your experiences with this and any thoughts you may have about the topic. Let’s engage!


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This was written June 30, 2012, edited in 2014 and not published until now. Wow, what a few years it’s been. Since deciding to go by the full name I was born with, Jennifer Marie Luce just to have availability to my full potential, I’m noticing things.

First off, people love “Jennifer.” Who knew?

“It’s pretty,” I heard.

As I answer the phone with my introduction, people respond: “Wow, you sound so official.”

Can’t say I ever heard that with “Jen.” And now that I think about it, Jen sounds like phlegm. Ha ha. Eww. Jennifer doesn’t rhyme with anything (does it?). It just flows. And I need flow in my life.

Yaay me. Thanks again to Joseph Ghabi for opening my eyes.

So, onto the rest of the week. Saturday night I changed the name, and as I was going to bed, earplugs in (to sleep through the cat playing), I heard words being spoken, as if by people on the phone, however as I sat up and pulled out the earplugs, I still continued to hear them. They were a melange of people from around the world having conversations about their strife in the world. As I tuned in, I could hear men and women. I got frightened and then the sounds disappeared. I realized this was my clair-audience and fell back asleep. 

On another occasion in 2014, I was wearing red and black, then saw red, black, red, black, red, black cars in the City Hall parking lot as I returned back from the mall at lunch.

Walking into the office, I find a red and black ladybug on my dress. Coincidence?

At the time I wasn’t sure, but then began to see more patterns. To be honest, it had been years since I had been seeing them. Now, over tyears later, I understand why. It’s been my angels and guides trying to get in touch with me. There’s a lot of information out there about the ethereal. Guides. Ascended masters. Angels. Spirit animals. Starseeds. So much more. I often see patterns with the colours of cars. For example, as of late, I see three white cars. Or most recently four black or darker coloured cars. According to a book by Inna Segal called “The Secret Language of Your Body,”

White includes the entire  colour spectrum and heals the whole body. It is great for clearing toxicity from the body and purifying it. When treating with white, it is important to combine it with another colour beneficial to the part of the body needing to be healed.

White assists with clarity and understanding. it is the colour of choice, honesty, purity, protection, and reflection. it supports people reaching for their dreams, gives them courage to face challenges, and shows them the bigger picture.

Use white to create balance, replenish your spiritual strength and vision, and open up to infinite possibilities. White also has an ability o dissipate negative thoughts and feelings between people. It brings peace and comfort at the highest level.

White represents integrity, light, holiness, truth, and surrender. it softens, moisturizes, and revitalizes the skin and can be very helpful in healing skin problems. White is also cooling and refreshing, which is why people love to wear it in hot weather. White can both hide and reveal.

Overuse of white can lead to feeling depleted and washed out.

Interesting hey?

Numbers are other patterns. Have you ever noticed seeing 11:11 a lot or 3:33, $14.44? The list goes on. One day in a lineup at the border I was drawn to look at two other cars in parallel lanes. My licence plate was BKN 738. In front directly to my right was a vehicle of a different colour, with CLO 739, and then in the lane to the right of them and a few cars up, DMP 740. Coincidence? I think not. Do you see the pattern? Something was trying to get my attention. What, I’m not sure of. Up until late 2014, I’d never had a great understanding around angels. Spirits have visited me since I was young, but angels always seem far fetched. Funny, I think, because I believed in the Easter Bunny and Tooth Fairy when I was a kid, as well as Unicorns and Pegasus’s.

I often see the numbers 111, 11:11 or 33, and according to many mediums and specifically Dorreen Virtue, etc. 11 or 111 means respectively “Stay positive! Your thoughts are materializing rapidly, so you want to ensure positive outcomes by focusing only on the good within yourself, others, and this situation; and this number b rings you the urgent message that you are manifesting instantly, so keep your mindset focused upon your desires. Give any fearful thoughts to Heaven for transmutation.” 33 stands for “You have a strong and clear connection with one or more ascended masters (i.e. dieties or gods like Buddha, Ganesha, Quan Yin, and Shiva), who have answered your call and your prayers. Keep talking to them, as they’re helping you with your present situation.” 333 is “You are completely surrounded, protected, loved, and guided by the benevolent ascended masters.” Another great website I use for a breakdown of numbers is by Joanne Scribes www.sacredscribesangelnumbers.blogspot.ca/p/index-numbers.html.

Buddha came into my life years ago through my best friend. I realize the topic of religion is one to be gentle with as I don’t judge the views of others; I was raised Christian/Catholic. I don’t consider myself religious, but spiritual. Over the last year, I’ve had meditations where I’ve had tea with an eight-armed, ornately adorned woman; seen my partner Stefan’s guides and had them communicate thorough medical; heard and seen things that didn’t exist; helped exorcise a spirit from a friend’s aura; seen evil spirits try to psychically attack; been drawn to things in nature that have shown sacred geometry or other patterns; seen faeries in the woods and had other-worldly, amazing experiences. 

I look forward to sharing more of my journey with you on a more continual basis here forward and would love for you to share yours as well.

I’ve created a new page on Facebook to share these experiences collectively and look forward to hearing more about you. I accept all!

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Maybe I have your attention? Or maybe you’ve left because you can’t be bothered to figure out what BSH and MBS stand for.

Well, the latter is easy:

  • Mind
  • Body
  • Spirit

It’s something I pride myself in because I feel that I finally have a good balance in all three. I’ve worked hard on each of them, and will continue to do so until the day I die. Finding my life purpose, really brought everything together – and has melded it so.

The former, is a little more complicated. I met a new friend in February at the Anjali Hill workshop – Living from Truth: Contact. During a recent chat, she made something very clear to me. The right partner for anyone must have all three of the following:

  • Balls
  • Spine
  • Heart

I think brains also needs to be included in this. We may see different factors within each of the three points, but without all three, a true partner cannot exist.

I’ve let her words permeate my being, and they truly resonate with me. It’s likely that all people have all three, but may not be aware of what’s involved for them to be truly present.

What do you think?

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Another quote from Jake on “Touch” – April 26 episode:

Numbers are constant, until they’re not. Our inability to influence outcome is the great equalizer; makes the world fair. Computers generate random numbers in an attempt to glean meaning out of probability. Endless numerical sequences lacking any pattern. But during a cataclysmic global event: tsunami, earthquake, the attacks of 911 – these random numbers suddenly stop being random. As our collective consciousness synchronizes, so do the numbers. Science can’t explain the phenomenon, but religion does, it’s called prayer. A collective request sent up in unison, shared hope. Numbers are constant, until they’re not.

During cataclysmic global events, our collective consciousness synchronizes. So do of the numeric sequences created by random number generators. Science can’t explain the phenomenon, but religion does, it’s called prayer. A collective request, sent up in unison, a shared hope, a fear relieved, a life spared. Numbers are constant…until they’re not.

In times of tragedy. Times of collective joy. In these brief moments, it is only the shared emotional experience that makes the world seem less random. Maybe it’s coincidence. Or maybe it’s an answer to our prayers.

Wow, so how fitting I am watching this tonight, after spending time with a numerologist named Joseph Ghabi in Vancouver. The episodes normally make me cry, but tonight, their focus on love really got me.


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Certain words have been following me around for months now:

  • Awareness
  • Abundance
  • Acceptance

My three A’s seem to be following me this year. Although I began the year with the focus on my heart, with thoughts behind love and everything to do with it.

I’m wanting to write about fertility, but without a title being so “in your face.” I am approaching my 35th birthday in June, and I have to say I somewhat dread it. To not yet be married or with a family really gets to me. The ticking of the clock is no longer. It is now similar to the gong on Jimmy Carson’s “Gong Show.” And an appointment I had at Genesis Fertility only confirmed this is the case.

First off, I must say that asking for the referral was the toughest thing for me. Though my oncologist has been telling me now for the past five years to “have a plan” if I wanted to have a family, I think I was too afraid to see where I was at. So, with my impending 35th on it’s way, I figured this was the year. The office was beautiful. Staff were friendly and it was very welcoming, even if I did go on my own. The ultrasound confirmed that I had 14 follicles on my left ovary, one ready to potentially fertilize. Yeah, well, that wasn’t going to happen anytime soon. Long story…


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It was starting to sprinkle as Lucy and I left the house for our usual after work walk and the air was crisp as I drew it into my nostrils. The cherry blossoms in full bloom I was reminded of the phrase “tree of life.” I have learned to imagine myself as a tree, firmly rooted in the ground, balanced no matter what comes my way. Swaying my arms as I dance, the same as the boughs and limbs of a tree move in the wind.

I also began to think of a new way of picturing this tree. That this tree of life represented every living thing I’ve known, and that when one person leaves or dies, a leaf falls from the tree.


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Our world is in the throes of change. In difficult times, the tongue can get carried away and it can transform our best intentions into something we cannot handle. None of us are capable of handing anything on our own. The wisdom of a Higher Power is needed – and it is available to us if we ask. Learn to cast aside those things that interfere with peace of mind, and speak words that will deliver all of us. We have the power, but we must use it.

Joyce Sequichie Hifler – Feast of Days, Volume III, March 26 entry

This weeks Living with Truth practice asks me to do a few things:

  1. List the things I have too much contact and not enough contact with (physical, emotional, mental, spiritual – things, events, and relationships); and
  2. Have contact with something or someone that brings me spiritual joy – choose a different focus each day to find what gives me happiness in my soul and to widen my focus for spiritual fulfillment.

And so I now sit and ponder what exactly these things are. I think I’ve lost touch with them. I used to meditate. I used to do yoga. I used to spend a lot of time in nature. I used to take time for me, not being distracted by material things – tv, music, worldly noises. I find I am now struggling with this. I wonder if it’s been the long winter, the ebb and flow of fulfillment in my work, or that my soul is saddened by all the loss I encounter? Yet, I really think I’ve disconnected myself in some way. That I’m not whole at this moment in time. That I’m unhappy.


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